At time I really doubt my existence in this world. I even pause and think 'Do I hate myself?' Right now, my life is feeling so messed up. I realised that I'm only fighting for myself all the while in my family. None of them actually authentically cared for my well-being. This feeling really sucks. It sucks being me. I really hope I could get out of this phase asap. Having one that insults me day to day and the other caring about some retarded 'ooo it's my brand new iPhone 4S', life's really tough for me. Kinda sound like a suicidal message now but nah, I won't end my life that easily because I believe that there are more meaning behind it. Right now, the thing that I wish to do most is to change my entire birth cert. I would rather be an orphan.
